Thursday, January 19, 2012
I had a sleep study Monday night (they should call it a no-sleep study). It was so terrible. I felt like I didn't sleep at all, I was dreaming about not sleeping, and I couldn't tell if I was asleep or awake most of the time. At 5:30am when they woke me up to send me home, I felt awful and then they told me there was no apnea during the night.
So, no apnea is good because I don't have to wear a CPAP or any other breathing device while I sleep. I did have my hopes up that this would explain why I wake up feeling so crappy every morning, though. That's out, I guess. I'm still waking up all the time at night and don't feel rested when I wake up in the morning.
My neurologist is submitting a narrative to my insurance to try and get me approved for Botox treatments to prevent migraines. It was recently approved by the FDA for this use and has shown some good success. Because I've tried everything else to prevent migraines, this might actually get approved. I'm still getting 1-2 migraines every week.
I've had a rough month. I've been really down and discouraged for most of it and feeling physically awful. I have moments where I'm encouraged and am finding faith in my down times, but it was bad. This past couple of days have been better. A good friend reminded me of a verse: “Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus” - 1 Thessalonians 5:18. She reminded me that these “speed bumps” make you slow down and look at why God has you where He does.
Please pray that I will continue to see Christ in my struggle and feel Him with me through every step. I know He's there, I just need to make sure I'm meeting Him. Please pray that I will be able to sleep soundly through the night and feel rested when I wake up in the morning. Please pray about the Botox treatments.