Sunday, June 10, 2012

The Dark Before the Morning

I had been in a dark spot this past few weeks and am slowly climbing my way out of it. I'm so grateful to all the encouragement that I received from friends and strangers alike. I'm sorry for those who tried when I wasn't ready to hear it yet.

I find I go through cycles where I am ok with things for a while, then I get so deeply discouraged that I feel as if I'll never find my way out of it. Well, I'm starting to see the light. I have been having a bout of insomnia this week and was awake this morning for the sunrise.

It's plain to see that God shines His light on us every day. You can see its beauty and maybe even appreciate it whether you are a believer or not. Once you start to connect and feel the emotion behind it, that's when you are won over to Christ. Looking at the beauty cast by God's light in such darkness won me over yet again. It's amazing how dark it can get after only a few weeks of shutting out God's light.

I'm grateful for God's patience, understanding, love, and unfailing faithfulness. I am grateful that He gave me the gift of a husband who is honest and leads me back to Christ when start to waver. I'm grateful for children to love me unconditionally and give me joy every day. I'm grateful for the support of a network of people that support and love me even when I'm surly and discouraged. There are so many things that I am truly blessed with.

I will not give up the fight.  "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12: 1-2


  1. Hi Kate,
    I'm truly sorry for the disappointments and hardships God had planned for you. I can relate, maybe not completely to your 3 year extent, but I've also been suffering from post concussion syndrome for a year now. It's so difficult sometimes to keep plugging along when you feel like your migraines will never end. But, as you know, God has beautiful plans for you ahead! You're on the right path to not give up the fight, and your strength is inspiring!

    You're in my healing prayers and God bless you always!



    1. Have you ever heard of HBOT for PCS? LSUHSC w Paul Harch MD has funding for treatment. Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy. Free HBOT for those who meet criteria.

  2. Hey Kate,
    I may not be an adult but I know what your going through. I received a double concussion while playing soccer on April 22, 2012. I have been suffering from post concussion syndrome ever since. It is scary to know that I could deal with this pain for longer then I already have. But you truly give me hope that there are ways to deal and cope with this pain we suffer everyday. I still can't go to school for a whole day and I really feel like I'm missing out on my life and school. All I do all day is lay around because if I stand up I feel like I'm going to fall over. I suffer from constant migraines, literally 24/7. I don't sleep at night because I rest all day long. But anyways, I want to thank you for creating this blog because it shows people that were not alone in this fight, that there are people who understand us. I would really like to keep in touch with you because I really do look up to you! So thanks again

  3. Alicia,

    I'm so glad to hear from you, but sorry you are in this position. I really hope you are healed and better soon. I know how hard it is, but it seems like you have a great attitude. I really believe that helps. I tried so hard the last 3 years to make sure everyone knew how I felt, but am now realizing that it's ok if people don't get it. I can be happy even if I feel miserable. My physical health doesn't have to affect my emotional or spiritual health. Hang in there. The first part is the hardest part. Going to all the doctors, finding out what your limitations are, and living within them is tough. You can do it!


  4. Lila,

    So sorry to hear about your situation! I appreciate your prayers and support. Hang in there. I know God had great things planned for you too.


  5. Dear Kate,
    Lovely song & video on this site.
    Have you ever heard of HBOT for PCS? LSUHSC w Paul Harch MD has funding for treatment. Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy. Free HBOT for those who meet criteria.

  6. Free HBOT treatment of those who meet criteria.
    Airline tickets are also available for those who can not afford them & if they meet criteria to be in the study.