I had been in a dark spot this past few weeks and am slowly climbing my way out of it. I'm so grateful to all the encouragement that I received from friends and strangers alike. I'm sorry for those who tried when I wasn't ready to hear it yet.
I find I go through cycles where I am ok with things for a while, then I get so deeply discouraged that I feel as if I'll never find my way out of it. Well, I'm starting to see the light. I have been having a bout of insomnia this week and was awake this morning for the sunrise.
It's plain to see that God shines His light on us every day. You can see its beauty and maybe even appreciate it whether you are a believer or not. Once you start to connect and feel the emotion behind it, that's when you are won over to Christ. Looking at the beauty cast by God's light in such darkness won me over yet again. It's amazing how dark it can get after only a few weeks of shutting out God's light.
I'm grateful for God's patience, understanding, love, and unfailing faithfulness. I am grateful that He gave me the gift of a husband who is honest and leads me back to Christ when start to waver. I'm grateful for children to love me unconditionally and give me joy every day. I'm grateful for the support of a network of people that support and love me even when I'm surly and discouraged. There are so many things that I am truly blessed with.
I will not give up the fight.